Where's my Birthday Bucket List? | Gratitude for the past year | 2019

Hi there. Today’s my Birthday. I’m 27! One day you’ll wake up and you’re suddenly 27.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflection this last year and I’m excited where Kent and I are going in life. But that includes a lot of personal changes. Which are sometimes hard, but always good.

This is me, editing at 3 a.m. in the middle of wedding season.

This is me, editing at 3 a.m. in the middle of wedding season.

Many of you have sent me messages about how you yourself are doing a “birthday bucket list” for your birthdays and I can’t even describe how happy that makes me! I love seeing the joy that comes to others from doing a birthday bucket list and what you’re doing to accomplish something you’ve always wanted to do that year or just living with more purpose.

A year ago I was in the audience of the Ellen show with my sister and a couple other friends. It was really quite the experience and just very exciting. It was sort of one of those moments where it’s like “I wonder if I’ll ever get to do this again”. And that’s what a lot of my bucket list items were. Things to check off and move on to the next thing for that rush of fun or excitement, just so I could say “I’ve done it” and never really do it again.

That’s when it kind of hit me. Was I really just living for those moments of doing it once and then never really thinking I could do something like that again? I really had no belief in myself or confidence in where I was going. Birthday Bucket lists were great, but what was I really living for? And who do I really want to become?

I’m on a journey of personal growth and purpose. This is why I’ve been off social media since October and haven’t even looked at my Birthday Bucket list since May of last year. This post is a little different than other birthdays, but I’m okay with that. My life has purpose and I have a vision of where I want to be and that’s way more important that checking things off a list. Even if it’s a fun birthday bucket list.

With all that said, I still encourage others to continue their personal birthday bucket lists if that brings them happiness and joy within their birthday year! But if it’s more pressure than it is fun, maybe take a break and really figure out where you want to be in 5 years and start on that journey.

I’m so grateful for all the challenges and people and choices that have led me to where I am today. I’m grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ and the life he lived and gave so that we can live again and return to our Heavenly Father. I’m grateful for my amazing husband and two awesome kids. They bring us so much happiness! I truly believe that everything that comes your way is to build you. You have the choice of how you’re going to respond. When something happens to me where I could say “why me” I stop and remind myself “because this is what’s going to build you”. We are given circumstances not for punishment but for opportunities for growth and to truly build our character. I’m grateful for Heavenly Father’s plan and how we are given the blessing to live and learn on earth. I thank Him for that.

I hope you have a wonderful year!